Posted by kid_A on April 25, 2002, at 11:25:36
fact one: i dont deal with loss very well... all other facts rescinded... i cant eat, i cant sleep, i wake up if im lucky at 6:00am, tossing and turning, on the worst nights i cant sleep at all, hungry and depressed, mind racing with thoughts... i feel like im going crazy, when i seem like im getting better something touches me, a memory, a reminder, and im gone again... i feel locked in stasis with meds that do nothing, the meds that seem to work for me, the anxiolytics they want to drop... i feel like i want to disappear, i feel like i want to run away, i feel like clawing my eyes out, i wish i could have been closer to ground zero, i wish i could have done something, i wish that this was all a dream... i wish i wish i wish...
poster:kid_A
thread:22621
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