Posted by JohnX2 on April 16, 2002, at 1:17:28
In reply to How do i stop being angry?, posted by LiLi80 on April 11, 2002, at 14:29:08
> I take neurontin for my anger, but i am still angry. It helps for not making me go after those girls. so it takes away extreme anger, but when i dont take them i am back to what i was. I want to get rid of anger, i dont want to be like this. my ex dumped me because of my anger, well that is one of the many reasons he gave me, cause he doesnt even know why we arent together, but he gives me new reasons every time i see him. I want him back, but i know have to not be angry person in order to even have a chance. How do i stop being angry. forgiveness doesnt work, cause they dont deserve it. i dont want anger management, cause the pdoc that i went to told me i have to pretend not to be angry for that. I am sick of represseing my emotions for only other people. I have emotions and i should be able to express them, but that leaves me with no friends and no boyfriend, whom i still love very much. i miss him, he asks about me still, and IMs me every once in while. I wish i knew how to get him back. he isnt the usual 22 yr old guy, offering sex doesnt work with him. he moved 2 hours away so he isnt even nearby. I hate this, i hate being angry , i dont mind being depressed, its nice having something other than myself to blame stuff on. i am not even mad at my ex, which i should be but i am not. i mad at my parents all the time (no surprise i am human) and i mad at the girls and the school. I cant forget what they did to me. I keep thinking that if they admit what they did was wrong then maybe i will stop being angry. but that wont happen, it bothers me more that no one believes me. I want the whole school to know what horrible things they have done to me. I want stupid dr baker (the ***** that took away my life) to suffer and be humilated and laughed at by the rest of the faculty at school. I hate elaine (the res life dir) because she called me a burden to the school and my roommates. i want her fired. I want to not be angry anymore, but i want justice. I want people to know that i am not crazy.
This may not be totally relevant to your topic, but I would like to point out that angry *manic* people do STUPID things (they are unable to screen their thought processes and think coherently) and THEY REGRET IT AND APOLOGIZE.John
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