Posted by ST on March 10, 2002, at 0:43:45
In reply to Sarah, other picked on kids, posted by trouble on March 9, 2002, at 13:49:43
>>It's the kind of thing that can make you vow to yourself to be famous someday so they can see you bantering w/late night talk show hosts while they're saddled w/ shitty marriages and a houseful of kids just like themselves.>>
So funny! Yes, for a while, those were my thoughts. (Then I grew up and actually realized what it means to be an actor in the real world...)It disturbed me that I was taunted and teased so much. And it really was because I was so different. I talked to myself (imaginary characters around me) during playtime. A few "freaks" would join me during recess. We'd play "farm" and I would get down on all fours and pretend I was a horse and actually eat grass (how "method" of me...)My peers thought I was truly nuts.
I remember coming across some boys on recess. They were playing some sort of game where whoever got tagged "liked Sarah". Then all the other boys would run away and hide while the unfortunate boy "who liked Sarah" had to find them and tag the next boy....I found them playing this and picking me as their "monster" not for my benefit - like to get a rise out of me, let's say - but simply because they thought about it and came to the conclusion that I was the weirdest, strangest, most repulsive girl in school. Sounds so trivial and stupid now. Boo hoo. Oh, poor me. But at the time, it was inescapable torture. At some point people heard me sing and learned I could act or thought I was "funny" instead of just "weird" and then wanted to be my friend. (?) This didn't happen till high school. One really mean, mean, nasty girl who seduced my beloved, yet cheating, boyfriend (unbeknownst to me at the time!) was asked why she was always so nice to me given the circumstances with my boyfriend and all. Her reply: "Well, Sarah's going to be a successful actor and I don't want to burn any bridges."So I guess there's no winning. I'm still a big freak. And I don't make my sole living off of acting. ("successful"???) But I think she is now on her second marriage and about 60 pounds overweight.
I wouldn't trade my being born manic-depressive - or "different" - for the world. My mother can't believe it when I've said that, but it's true. I have some sort of thing inside me that makes me tick as an artist and I love being different.
Sarah
PS: Anyone out there grow up in Gilroy during the 80s? Put up your dukes!!!
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