Posted by MaverickZ on January 21, 2002, at 7:45:35
I am 28 now,but when I was 17 I was taken to a psychiatrist. I was made to take a test that rated your answers by percentile based on population polls.
In most categories I was average, but in 4 categories I was to one extreme or the other. The lowest at 2 percentile (meaning only 2 percent of the population had less than me) was Phobia. The top three were at around 86 percentile Obsessive/Compulsive, at 92 percentile was Paranoia, and at 96 percentile was Pscosis.Over the last 11 years I have tried to work on these problems but feel I am not making any progress. I am currently engaged to a wonderful woman. BUT I keep worrying that something will happen to cause our relationship to fail. In addition I put myself to sleep at night by focusing these fears into someone that could possibly come between us and fantasizing about inflicting bodily harm to them.
Keep in mind I am not a violent person by nature and am not a hunter/fisher or in anyway the type of person that enjoys taking life from another living thing. (so I'm not psycotic in the dramatic sense) But these visions, and the worrying seem to be tearing me apart and I don't know what to do or if even some of these feeling are natural.
I find myself questioning wether or not I should be with this person...but it seems most of the reasons I come up with not to be are only in my head.
I find it hard to get rid of the paranoia due to the fact that it (so far) seems to 100% accurate. In that what I fear will happen...tends to happen. Is this a "self fullfilling prophecy"? Or is my "Spidey sense" just kicking in and alerting me to what will happen reguardless? I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone but I don't want to over-compensate and make a mistake either.
So my question is simple is anyone else like this or do I need a shrink?
the "Mav"
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