Posted by tina on December 20, 2001, at 9:05:09
In reply to Re: Conundrum, enigma, BIG problem » tina, posted by Fi on December 20, 2001, at 8:56:37
It isn't the side effects so much as it's putting foreign chemicals into my body on a daily basis. Even if thoses chemicals help, it still feels wrong to swallow chemicals two and three times a day............it's a hard one to figure out.
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now how/if you can change your thinking, and I know there are lots of debates about side effects. But if it helps, I dont see taking mine as toxic at all. Its in the same category for me as food- something I need to take in which I am not expecting to do me particular harm (tho that is qualified with lovely sticky puddings which will be doing my teeth and arteries no good at all!) My mother also took meds for many years and never had any short or long term side effects, let alone being 'eaten from the inside'.
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> We may both have been particularly lucky, of course.
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> Another perspective is that I have known various people with depression/anxiety who had a fear that there insides were being eaten up or destroyed (as a general fear, not thinking it was linked to meds), so it could be part of the anxiety too. So if anything helps the anxiety, it *might* help that too. Or maybe to be aware that just because you believe its toxic doesnt mean its necessarily true.
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> But big sympathies with your conundrum (that took 3 attempts at spelling!) I realise its not easy.
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> > I've been on and off meds since 1989. I had a good 3 or 4 years where I didn't need anything,,,,,amazing as that seems.
> > The thing is, when I am on meds, I "feel" my body is becoming toxic. I worry about the damage meds may be doing to my physical system. When I am taking meds, I can only think about NOT taking them because I am so afraid of what they are doing inside my body. I am very sensitive to my physical reactions to things. Taking a med every day "feels" like I'm pumping toxins into my body and how can that be better than the emotional/mental instability. I guess I figure, what's the point of feeling mentally good if,physically, my body is slowly being destroyed from the inside out.
> > How do I get around feeling that way or is it part of the anxiety syndrome that has become such a fixture in my existence?
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