Posted by tina on December 20, 2001, at 8:30:23
I've been on and off meds since 1989. I had a good 3 or 4 years where I didn't need anything,,,,,amazing as that seems.
The thing is, when I am on meds, I "feel" my body is becoming toxic. I worry about the damage meds may be doing to my physical system. When I am taking meds, I can only think about NOT taking them because I am so afraid of what they are doing inside my body. I am very sensitive to my physical reactions to things. Taking a med every day "feels" like I'm pumping toxins into my body and how can that be better than the emotional/mental instability. I guess I figure, what's the point of feeling mentally good if,physically, my body is slowly being destroyed from the inside out.
How do I get around feeling that way or is it part of the anxiety syndrome that has become such a fixture in my existence?
poster:tina
thread:15815
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