Posted by Willow on December 18, 2001, at 19:11:20
In reply to I don't think I'm depressed... so what am I??, posted by NikkiT2 on December 17, 2001, at 13:03:54
There is no point in the future. ... i will end up seeing all the bad things in the world... eg, if I walk down to the shop I will see someone hit by a car.. If I live to next year someone I love will die... Does this make sense??
> It is such a damn burden some days I can barely move. I am constantly looking for situations where these bad things will occur, I have to be 100% alert of every little thing around me, and this makes me ache with the tension of it. If I take my mind off it for one single minute then something will happen.
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> This is turning into a bit of a ramble, but does anyone know what i mean??
NikkiFirst no bad rambles. During my rambles I'm able to clear up a lot of things. Rambling is good especially among friends.
I agree with you that it doesn't sound like depression. Look into Generalized Anxiety Disorder, GAD. The constant worry does wear us out.
At first when I read your title I was expecting to write a reply saying that you are normal, but I don't believe constant negative worrying is normal or healthy. I myself had gone to therapy for years which helped somewhat, but a med was able to help with overdrive of constant fear of harm happening to others.
Do you have a therapist? What has your doctor diagnosed you with? My gp would say I have depression, which is probably what he sees when I go in at the breaking point but my psychologist says its anxiety which I had denied for a long time. My was so general that I didn't recognize it till the med relieved it and then I thought wow that was a real sucky way to live.
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You still are normal in my booksWillow
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