Posted by IsoM on December 18, 2001, at 1:55:13
In reply to What has to be done- and motivating self to do it?, posted by Fi on December 16, 2001, at 14:11:41
I hate to recommend something that works so well for me as it may be bust for someone else. I feel leery about it because it seems pushy to me but here goes...
Adrafinil (Olmifon) has been such a blessing for me. Modafinil (Provigil) might work just as well but it's more expensive so I didn't bother with it.
I got the order screwed up so that I ran out last Thursday with no pills. I've only been taking it for a little over a month & for me, the improvement happened over a couple of weeks so it wasn't as noticable as a sudden change.
Now that I don't have it, I can tell the differences even though not all its good effects have worn off.
I so miss not having it. I'm not depressed - the Celexa & small amount of Paxil stops that but my motivation is gone again. I once again have to force myself to do things, to get up & get busy without having a deadline hanging over my head. With the adrafinil, I didn't suddenly change but just started doing more, accomplishing more & feeling very gentle & content inside.
My ADHD-muddled-up ideas went away. I became focused & not so distracted like before. (How many of us start looking something up on the net, get side-tracked by something else, & a couple of hours later can't even remember what we were looking for?) Boy. is the difference ever noticable when the adrafinil isn't there! Even boring things became fun or interesting to do, not tedious like before.
As I said, I hate to push anything but adrafinil has been a god-send for me. It's something that I've been looking for for so many years. More even & level than Ritalin or Dexedrine. Never ups or down, just steady contented satisfaction. Oh, I hope my order gets here soon!!
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> I know I'm lucky that I'm not particularly depressed at the moment. I get myself to work and function OK there, but at home I only to do the minimum. Some things I used to do as a regular routine I dont anymore, so its more of a decision to do them.
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> My problems are:
> 1. How do I decide what I *have* to do? I'm particularly aware of this as this weekend I have been awake for a while in the mornings, but decided to stay in bed, gone back to sleep, and woken up at 2.45ish in the afternoon. Not sure if that *matters*... Or not washing the kitchen floor for weeks etc etc
> 2. How do I *make* myself do the things I need to? I just dont seem to have the willpower I used to. I do lots of encouraging/ bullying of myself, and imagine doing it; but often it gets me nowhere- the part of me on the 'receiving end' of this just shrugs it off.
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> Anyone else's ideas v welcome!
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> Fi
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