Posted by Shar on November 24, 2001, at 11:03:35
In reply to Suicide, posted by Cass on November 23, 2001, at 23:57:55
> I don't believe in hell...
I only believe in hell insofar as it is what I am living now. I completely understand the desire to leave, end it, let go the struggle, feeling exhausted, the hopelessness, wanting to sleep forever. Before you go, the one thing I would encourage you to examine is the assumption that where you would go would be better than your life here. That may or may not be so, and you should at least be prepared for the possibility.
> ....but I am very sad to do it nonetheless.
It is so very sad, I know. It has always struck me as ironic that when I have been ready and willing to happily end my stay here, I've always felt sad. I'm not sure what to make of it; I'm no Pollyanna when it comes to thinking happy thoughts about stuff. I think maybe it is, in me, the tiniest of micro-sparks, one small iota in me that is a spark. That is what is hard for me to extinguish.
Cass, whatever happens, I hope you find what you need and want. I hope you find a big spark to warm you, no matter which side of the veil you are on.
Shar
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