Posted by akc on November 24, 2001, at 8:36:14
In reply to Suicide, posted by Cass on November 23, 2001, at 23:57:55
> I'm afraid of being old and alone.
I carry this with me daily -- and wonder if it will lead me to try someday -- again -- I've made one attempt -- it was half-hearted. I think more than anything, I wanted someone to hear my desperation -- my exhaustion -- my inability to continue to balance everything. And to understand that I had no more strength to carry on.
I'm hoping that because you have reached out here that you are still at that point. That you still want someone to hear. It is simple for me to tell you to reach out beyond this cyber-world -- it is such a hard thing to do. I hope you will do so. I know you don't want hospitals, but the right hospital can help -- they really can. I guess I would urge you most to call your pdoc again -- telling his answering service that it is an emergency.
I know you are tired and it doesn't seem worth it -- but you are worth it. You don't believe so -- you only see the problems. I hope you can trust me on this. I can so feel what you are going through. I wish I was there with you. To help you through this in person -- let me help you through it here -- call your pdoc. Let him know what is going on.
akc
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