Posted by sar on November 21, 2001, at 5:37:02
In reply to emotions dulled or backbone grown?, posted by sar on November 20, 2001, at 14:27:06
thanks all, for your kind words.
in truth, my ex-friend was the better writer, and i adored him for it. i've a weakness for well-composed prose and poetry, and during these years he sent me so many pieces that bowled me over, in addition to introducing me to some of his favorite writers.
our friendship has seriosuly waned in the past 9 months or so, and i've finally decided that it wasn't that he was jealous, it was his lack of empathy that ultimately destroyed our friendship. maybe he couldn't handle my going crazy. fine. but he did call himself a truth-seeking madman, and i ultimately felt mislead.
while i was busy losing my mind, he was hotly pursuing a tig-bitty blonde at his jobplace. fine, we all have our own lives, but--
i guess it's the border. it's the border...this illness has separated my true friends from the flakes...tonight i almost cried in my boyfriend's arms as i told him of going tothe hospital. he understood. i don't know how.
whati fault my ex-friend for is his lack of emotionality. for many years i loved him deeply, and finally i couldn;t stand for any of the letters to be scattered 'round my room. i don't want to see that handwriting anymore...
Mair--i do like lots of sixties and seventies music--the Rolling Stones, the Beatles, the Doors, Janis Joplin, Bob Dylan, Joan Baez, Pink Floyd, Leonard Cohen...but i've never heard of Tom Rush! i'll check him out...i like contemporary stuff too (trip hop, hip hop, rock etc) but i've beenin a real folksy/ ole rock 'n' roll mood for awhile now.
once, wheni was very drunk, a boy was playing Bobby Dylan on his guitar, and i snuck over and kissed him on the neck...you can guess the rest...i'm a sucker for good music...!
love,
sar
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