Posted by sar on October 3, 2001, at 21:38:58
In reply to What is bulghar wheat??, posted by Greg A. on October 3, 2001, at 14:20:26
dear Greg,
i'm proud of you...as far as motivation goes, so you feel a bit sharper, but do you also feel the loss of addiction, of not being enslaved to a substance? are you on AD's? do they work better without the presence of alcohol?
i drink every day without fail. i have many back-up plans concerning where to buy beer after 12 and where to drink after 2. i've never been so crafty. i'm drinking merlot right now--i tell myself it's temporary, haven't been behind the wheel since my DWI, try to ward-off blackouts...
do you get anxious at bedtime at all? i'm terrified of not being able to sleep. for 2 years i was as okay as i could be, rosy-cheeked and bordering on happiness, and my boyfriend and i would smoke a bowl or two at bedtime. since we've broken up and i have to get into bed alone, i like to be knocked the f*ck out.
how do you deal with cravings? has not drinking caused you any anxiety?
here's some motivation: you'll age better. you'll smell better. you'll train yourself to not be dependent on a substance.
i hate the alcoholic mindframe. i think alcohol is a wonderful creation, i'm just tired of it being my daily required crutch. clutches
how bad is it?
in my dreams last night, someone told me, "there is something wrong with a person who can knock back a bottle of wine by themselves"--which i skillfully do often. do you think a bottle of wine is alot, or am i overreacting?
anyway, i'm gonna repeat that i'm damn proud of you, i think you must have tapped into alot of strength...
bulghar wheat is parched crack wheat, and it is *very* good for you! mmmmmmmm.....try an Amy's Chicago Veggie Burger, it's much better than that jimmy buffet stuff...(as long as you're on this health-kick, i'll toss a little propaganda yr way... :)
my best to you,
sar
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