Posted by sar on September 26, 2001, at 13:14:18
In reply to Glad the Neurontin + Boyfriend are helping... » sar, posted by Krazy Kat on September 24, 2001, at 10:37:23
> I realize now that the depression is going to keep coming back. Reading Noonday Demon actually helped bang that into my head. The cycles won't stop completely, they'll just get fewer and further in between hopefully.
"the truth shall set you free"
> I want to set up a core of supporters to help me handle it next time, but I have a hard time asking for help.well you know we're always here, right? i hope you do. i hope you'll not have a hard time asking for anything.
> I feel quite good right now. Not depressed and have not had a manic episode in about a month and a half. Just tired.
i hear you. do you feel like the change of seasons will affect you much, i.e., no more oppressive summer heat?> Hypomanic phase for me - not sleeping for anywhere from a couple of days to five or so days. I get really wired, often irritable, kind of act like I'm on speed, talk fast, process things too quickly, so I can't concentrate, sometimes psychotic features like seeing ghosts.
wow. i "borrowed" *An Unquiet Mind* from a bookstore yesterday and read over 100 pages of it in a bar before some asshole started hitting on me in a totally WASP-y travelling-salesman-type way. Ugh. Anyway, it moved me to tears right there in the bar. my docs think i've been hypomanic, but your description of it and Jamison's too make me doubt it. i always get my sleep. my concentration's poor because of lack of exercise due to depression...my irritability has always come in waves...psychotic features, that's really crazy/amazing...are the hallucinations frightening?
> Recently, I was cycling more and more, and it kind of seemed to be getting mixed together. My pdoc labeled me last time as rapid cycling.
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> By hysterical, I just mean I went in crying and sort of threatening, saying I am having suicidal thoughts this time, I am ready to just jump in the car and start moving (I always just want to run away from everything), and you better do something fast, no more of this waiting around 4 - 6 weeks. And he did.ahhhh, now i understand. i'm a complete hysteric myself. my pdoc calls me "histrionic."
> I think I would always have to call you Sar.
i think i'll always have to be sar! i've posted some crazy sh*t on this board...i still think of you as Kingfish, but if KK suits you, then good on ya.love,
sar
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