Posted by Krazy Kat on September 24, 2001, at 10:37:23
In reply to Re: Speaking Your Mind - Sar and everyone » Krazy Kat , posted by sar on September 23, 2001, at 22:44:49
I realize now that the depression is going to keep coming back. Reading Noonday Demon actually helped bang that into my head. The cycles won't stop completely, they'll just get fewer and further in between hopefully.
I want to set up a core of supporters to help me handle it next time, but I have a hard time asking for help.
I feel quite good right now. Not depressed and have not had a manic episode in about a month and a half. Just tired.
Topamax is another mood stabilizer - it's newer. An anti-convalusant (sp?). AKC was trying it, too. Where has she been?
Hypomanic phase for me - not sleeping for anywhere from a couple of days to five or so days. I get really wired, often irritable, kind of act like I'm on speed, talk fast, process things too quickly, so I can't concentrate, sometimes psychotic features like seeing ghosts.
Recently, I was cycling more and more, and it kind of seemed to be getting mixed together. My pdoc labeled me last time as rapid cycling.
By hysterical, I just mean I went in crying and sort of threatening, saying I am having suicidal thoughts this time, I am ready to just jump in the car and start moving (I always just want to run away from everything), and you better do something fast, no more of this waiting around 4 - 6 weeks. And he did.
I think I would always have to call you Sar.
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