Posted by Simcha on September 17, 2001, at 8:55:26
Well folks, it's been rocky lately.
Saturday the meds just weren't cutting it. I was suffering from a bought of depression. I had the symptoms of agitation, overwhelming sadness, wanting to crawl into bed and die, and moody. My boyfriend, ever suspicious, asked me if I had had a slip with my addiction. I tried to explain to him that it was the depression he was witnessing. He kept suspecting. I don't know what else I can do about it.
I'm better today. The meds seem to be working again. I have heard from others around here that sometimes the meds stop working for a bit and pick back up. I also understand that last week was very depressing (New York, job stuff, etc.). So more than likely it would have been much worse without my meds. I keep trying to explain to him why I'm on my meds and I used Saturday as an example. I told him that he got only a brief glimpse of what I am like without the meds and depressed. The brevity of the episode, I believe, was due to the meds.
And, on Sunday I did have a slip. He was not very supportive at all. ;-( He is very co-dependant and suddenly, my slip which does not have anything to do with him, becomes about him in his head. I'm tired this morning. I had a hard time sleeping. I love him so much yet I don't know how to get through this. I am using all of my 12-step support and I plan on using my therapist to get through this.
Well, not sure you all will understand what I'm trying to say. I know he doesn't.
Thanks for listening anyway.
poster:Simcha
thread:11468
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