Posted by gdog on September 7, 2001, at 17:39:24
In reply to Re: Bikes and booze., posted by Greg A. on September 7, 2001, at 16:34:49
hey greg. . .your posts sound familiar to me. i used to use all those excuses for my drinking, and then some. and i tried dozens of ways to "cut back" or whatever my goal of the week was. when it came right down to it, however, i had absolutely no control. and for me it has nothing to do with willpower. i have heard several folks say that "nobody but an alcoholic has to sit around wondering whether they're alcoholic." (or something to that affect. . .) good luck this weekend. (if you'd like, i can share some of the things that helped me stay clean and sober for almost 5 years.)
gd.> Thanks James. Your subtle, intuitive response to my post has given me insight into the true nature of my drinking. Could you try in the future though, to just come out and say what you are thinking.
> Yeah. The truth hurts. It’s funny. I had less of a problem being labeled as mentally ill than I do with ‘alcoholic’. When I have stopped drinking in the past, and it is an all or nothing thing with me, I have looked at it as a way to prove there is no real problem. Then I don’t have to face life without alcohol – only a short sentence. I like things I can see an end to. I have also used it as a way to see if the alcohol was contributing to my depression and anxiety. The minute I went booze free for a time and still suffered, I would start to drink again. I’d think “What’s the use? I might as well drink.”
> Okay – getting my courage up here. I’ll start small. I will not drink this weekend and I will report back on Monday.
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> Thanks
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> Greg
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