Posted by Greg A. on September 7, 2001, at 13:37:56
In reply to some really sound advice, posted by sar on September 6, 2001, at 22:51:15
I have always been a cyclist. I have always drank. (almost) I rode my bike to work one day when I worked in a different town from where I lived. I used to do this routinely, once or twice a week. We had a send off for a departing staff member. I drank – lots. I closed up the office and went to get in my car. No car. Only the bike. What the hell. I can ride 40 km drunk. Like you Sar, I ended up on the pavement. Not once but a number of times. Gradually the pain sobered me up. I made it part way home and then phoned my wife to come get me. Told her I’d had a flat. She wondered if I’d been in a fight from the scrapes. I still remember the feeling. That damn bike just would not stay upright under me.
I am feeling down today and disgusted with myself to some extent. I drink too much. I don’t get drunk – I just drink every evening. I may exercise first at the gym or biking, but I always drink. Every so often I cut back because I see I am getting a little over the line. I do have to go to work. I don’t like being hungover. I drink because I like the feeling of not feeling. It used to be to reduce anxiety. Not anymore. I like mild numbness. I like to think I have will power to make changes. I’m stuck on this one. Like the drinker who says they have no problem quitting, they just can’t stay quit – that’s me. I have stopped – but later I think I’m missing something – so I start again.
Here are some of my ruses to make this drinking acceptable:
I have exercised so I deserve a reward
I am a connoisseur of wine and beer
I am replacing fluids
I am functional the next day so what’s the problem
I never drink during the day
If you think my drinking is a problem – what about so and so.Thoughts?
Greg
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