Posted by Cindylou on August 29, 2001, at 13:48:29
Hi,
This is my first post to Psycho-Social Babble -- I'm usually in the medication section.And this might be too weighty of a topic, I'm not sure. But I am having a difficult time deciding whether to have another baby or not ... I thought it might help to ask some people who may have been in my position before.
I'm 37 years old, and have a 21-month old daughter. I really want her to have a brother or sister, and can't wait too long to decide what to do (since I'm getting up there in years.)
I've had chronic depression for several years and have been treated with medication for about 12 years. When I was pregnant, I got off the medications and did fine, until shortly after I delivered my baby. Then I suffered horrible postpartum depression and anxiety. I had a terrible time getting back on medications -- I was extra sensitive to everything. Just now, I'm starting to feel human again.
SO ... I am trying to decide ... should I go through it all again? Would it be fair to the new baby and my toddler if I go through the postpartum mess again? (I most likely will, according to research. Plus, it's supposed to get worse after each pregnancy.) I don't feel comfortable staying on meds while I'm pregnant -- I had a miscarriage when I was on Zoloft and Wellbutrin, even though I got off the meds as soon as I found out I was pregnant. I'm currently on Prozac and Wellbutrin.
My other option is adoption -- but would it be difficult on the kids if one is adopted and one isn't?
Thanks for letting me pour this out to you. I appreciate opinions, experiences, advice, whatever.
-cindy
poster:Cindylou
thread:10449
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