Posted by sar on July 27, 2001, at 21:22:41
In reply to Re: overdose » sar, posted by Wendy B. on July 27, 2001, at 14:43:44
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> Dear Sar,
> I'm sorry to hear this, and that it brought up stuff for you. I wish I understood what is classy about suicide, even in the way this guy did it... Since you describe yourself as suicidal, don't you think this glorifies it, by calling his method classy? Is is possible to dissuade yourself that >any< way of killing yourself is ok?
> If I want you to stay around, because you seem like such a nice person who is trying to get it together, is that just me being selfish?
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> A hug,
> WendyWendy,
thank you. i don't even know what to say. my theories on suicide differ so much from the norm that i believe they must be bizarre or extreme, and it's such a sticky topic.
how can suicide be classy? i don't know, maybe it's just my idealization of it. Purposeful overdose, like eating too many opium cakes or clenching an asp to your bosom or jumping into an active volcano seem--appropriate? Nobly forlorn?
shooting yourself in the head=not classy. getting a cop to shoot you=not classy.
i hope this isn't making you uncomfortable...
one moment i am drunkenly suicidal, the next morning i am in giggles and eating my organic vegan food lingering over hot tea and loving the sun. dr. jekyll & ms. hyde.
JahL once wrote that if he goes to a party and isn't having a good time, he leaves, and it's no big deal.
just such a private choice.
i have lots of doctors and pills, lots of my anxiety is gone, i listen to music now and have started perusing non-psychology books in the first time for more than a year.
i feel so weird. i feel like my views are just completely socially unacceptable, stop eating meat and allow people to die.
thanks Wendy, and hugs to you too.
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