Posted by yo-wazzzup on June 24, 2001, at 1:17:00
In reply to Re: Houston Tragedy- depressed mom, posted by mair on June 23, 2001, at 21:35:33
Does anyone know what she was medicated with? My heart aches for all affected by this. I know all too well what post pardom can feel like. I had it with my first (who's 9) & I'm currently battling it, my youngest is 7.5 months. Although I don't have thoughts of harming my children. I do have obsessive thoughts of protecting my children from the rest of the world. I have terrible nightmares that are vivid. I've spent days crying for no reason, etc. Hence the Paxil which began a few days after my son's birth. My GP gave it to me. It helped for a while but then I believe strongly that it did more harm than good. I've had serious memory loss, done things I don't recall doing, couldn't control anger-raged, and was crying @ the drop of a hat again...felt like I was losing touch with reality. I've been tapering off for a little over a week now & I'm down to 10mg. per day Having shitty (can I say that outloud?) withdrawl...so is my breastfed son unfortunately. I was initially told paxil was completely safe. The best choice for nursing Moms. CRAP! If this is what safe is ... I'm going to see a psychiatrist for the first time in over 10 years on the 5th of july. He wanted my GP to wien me from paxil to possibly switch to EFFEXOR...I haven't researched it yet, but I'm a little nervous. Honestly, smokin' weed (I haven't in 2yrs.) worked just fine for my post traumatic stress. I could function just fine. Had minimal anxiety attacks. Had decreased flash backs. Found humor in almost everything. Life was a little more relaxed & 'simple. Frankly the whole pharmacutical bit scares me. Feel like a GUINEA HUMAN for drug companies. I was analyzing the Houston tragedy as I tossed & turned unable to sleep last night. I pick everything to pieces - bad habit - I have an irrestable urdge to need to know WHY things are. Anyways, I thought of several scenerios...the one that stuck with me was the thought of her father passing on 2 months ago. I think that was the straw (as they say). Maybe in some twisted way she was trying to protect her babies from the rest of the world. Maybe sending them to a better place to be with her Dad? If she thought this world brought so much unbearable misery, perhaps she believed she was sparing them the pain. I KNOW THAT'S A MESSED UP WAY TO THINK BUT REMEMBER SHE WAS NOT THINKING RATIONALLY. I don't excuse what she's done. It breaks my heart each time I see those 4 little boys on the news & I burst into tears when precious little Mary appears on my TV in her frilly lil' pink dress. How many more lives will be lost before the world takes notice & makes mental health a PRIORITY, an issue to be dealt with & not swept under the rug? :o(
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