Posted by PhoenixGirl on April 8, 2001, at 11:07:44
I'm 23 and have had depression since I was 12. Ever since age 11 or 12, I have felt so utterly alone and alienated from other people. For most of the past ten years, I did not even have acquaintances, much less friend. As a result of having so little social development during those critical years, I have trouble even beginning a relationship with another person, platonic or otherwise.
I cannot describe in words this cold emptiness inside of me. I've been through many medicines and lots of therapy for my social phobia, which has helped but not enough. Every day for years I've had thoughts go through my head about me getting hurt or killed. All I want is closeness and love with other people. It tears my guts out when I see other people who are in love or having fun with friends. I know that I won'r survive if life keeps going on this way.
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