Posted by judy1 on March 20, 2001, at 12:16:49
In reply to Re: Voluntary Hospitalization, posted by Ted on March 19, 2001, at 23:32:15
Ted,
Thank you for your kind words. You are right, I can't go and check out hospitals. Even going to the parking lot i start having panic attacks. The last time I was in a hospital (there have been many times) I was on a suicide watch and checked every 15 min? There was a little slot underneath a window that wouldn't open and i would put my hand in and try to turn my wrist in an attempt to cut it all the time counting out the time until the nurses would check on me again. when the dr came the next day i had long sleeves so noone could see the bruises. I truly would rather be dead than be in a hospital. My dr. knows that and I think Craig maybe understood. I am happy for all the people that have had good experiences, there have been places that did not hurt me but I still was certain they would. this is on me I will try to work hard with my pdoc. take care, judy
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