Posted by Racer on November 30, 2000, at 22:03:46
In reply to Re: Racer?, posted by Noa on November 30, 2000, at 15:11:35
S'allright. Yesterday I finally got my hands dirty, and looked like a star. Today, though, they handed me something scary as all get out. My consolation is that none of the other developers can do it, and I know I CAN, it's just going to take me a longer time than it should. Of course, I made the SHOULD, so that's a buncha crap, but it's still scary for me.
Mind you, I fixed something yesterday that even the senior developer working on it couldn't fix. He didn't have a clue where to start, and while I didn't have a clue how to fix it, at least I could figure out the first thing to do to diagnose the problem. That led to a solution. I try to look at that sort of thing: I may not be able to hit the ground running at full speed, but I don't just lie there on the ground stunned for any real length of time, either.
Oh, you just wanted to know if I was OK, right? Yeah, I'm OK.
I am having some physical symptoms of my anxiety, though. The worst, in some ways, is a rash on my palm. The most painful is a nerve thing, kinda feels like the start of an outbreak of shingles. The scariest seems to be monoclonic jerks. I'm not sure, I only know that I have been experiencing episodes of full body jerking. (Please, no jokes... Unless they're good and I haven't already thought of them, that is!) I'm putting the last two down to drugs, and trying to ignore them.
And I've got a ton of plans for things to do... Gotta get some money for some of htem, but others will be fun once I collect the things I need!
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