Posted by Racer on November 27, 2000, at 23:07:27
In reply to Racer?, posted by Greg on November 27, 2000, at 15:46:34
I don't feel so good...
Let's see, I was nervous, but OK. The place is great, and the people are what make it so great. They are also warped, and the funniest thing happened today: the president was comparing notes with some young employees about movies they'd seen. He mentioned that he still hadn't seen "Titanic". Neither have I. We both said, at the same time, "Well, I've seen 'A Night To Remember'..." The kids said, "What's that?" Then we said, again at the same time, "It's in black and white..."
This is still training time, so it's not so vital for me to be brilliant. I did make some comment at the end of the day that my brain was full, I was much smarter than when I came in, and I was sure I'd know everything by Wednesday afternoon. One of the project managers said, "Now that's confidence!" I said, "No, I think that's hubris..." It's OK, though, since he said they wouldn't expect me to know everything until Thursday.
My nerves are shot to hell, though. Literally. I have a nerve running through my groin from my hip that is just electrically painful. It's awful. And my head hurts, my throat is sore, and I'm feeling on the edge of a screaming breakdown.
On the other hand, I do feel smart enough, or technically competent enough, or educable enough, or something enough, to get the job done. Provided, of course, the people side works for me. That's what scares me. I know that I can do the technical stuff. It's the people part that gets to be scary.
I did, however, come up with another job for me:
Picture a consultancy group for non-profits trying to pull together fundraising events. First, the group has a marketing person, who sells the ideas to the non-profits. Then, they have a designer, of some sort, who figures out what the events will need. Then, I get on the telephone, and start begging. I call the cruise lines, the balloon animal makers, the acrobats, etc; and talk them into donating their time and expertise to the event. That way, you get a great fund raising event, bring in lots of money, and don't have to try to do it without spending a dime! Instead, the places that usually charge a gazillion bux, get free publicity, lots of good will, prominent mention in all the media attention the events get, etc!
At least it's an idea. The sad part is, my ex-boyfriend would be the perfect project manager for this! He can't quite get it together, either, in his life. He's gone from billing about $500 per day, to getting about $12 per hour. Quite a letdown.
That's it, I'm going to curl up in front of the TV now...
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