Posted by coral on November 2, 2000, at 13:48:08
In reply to Re: Our Significant Others » coral, posted by CarolAnn on November 2, 2000, at 9:11:23
Dear CarolAnn,
Thank you for not being offended at my last post.
Yes, when I'm depressed (two episodes), the couch with a comfortable, soft blanket is my cave and I don't move. During the first depressive episode which ended six years ago, lasted three and a half years, I literally was a lump and if my husband hadn't brought me food, I would've starved to death. He refers to my "lump person" days. Right now, I'm on the healing side of a two-month'ish depression and strung several weeks where bathing, moving, eating, were almost beyond my abilities.
What happens for me is this void of time. I LOST two months. Gone. If I had to testify what I did, I could not do so in good conscience. It's just a black void.
As far as rewriting the past or fearing the future, no . . . when the depression beast is here, I'm too consumed with making it through the present moment (which seems endless) to even THINK about the past or present. Did you see the movie Ground Hog Day? It's like that... living the same day over and over again, without all of the wonderful improvements Bill Murray made.
What is your diagnosis?
I am feeling marvelous right now and hope it continues. May your day be great, too! :)
Coral
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