Posted by allisonm on October 26, 2000, at 18:55:43
In reply to Re: labels » allisonm, posted by Ted on October 25, 2000, at 23:22:23
< < You never know... you might get a reduced sentence for good behavior. :-) > >
I **have** been on good behavior. It doesn't matter what I do.< < If you have tried only "several" then try them all! And try some of the good combos, like SSRI+wellbutrin and Effexor+wellbutrin. > >
I tried SSRIs. They drove me up the wall. Then I tried Effexor XR. I hung on for what seemed an eternity waiting for the side effects to lessen, but they also drove me up the wall and I had to discontinue. Then I got on Remeron, then Remeron with lithium, then Remeron alone again, then Remeron with Wellbutrin, then Remeron with more Wellbutrin, then Wellbutrin with Remeron, now Wellbutrin (400mg) with Neurontin (600mg). If W&N don't work, it is on to an MAOI, which will require a 2-week washout. I cannot imagine trying to work in that time. I am having difficulty right now just waiting for the Neurontin to start working. I have been snapping at people or biting their heads off all day today.< < Maybe you will never be out of depression *completely*, but does that really matter? > >
Yes. It does.< < Isn't it good enough to be much better 100% of the time and completely free, say, 20% of the time. I would go for that. > >
Sorry to nitpick, but how does one define "much better"? 1. Much better -- feeling good most days with the occasional dark spell when something runs amok? 2. Much better -- not thinking about suicide for the most part, functioning at work (ie, being able to concentrate and get some work done), but not often being able to really laugh, not feeling like doing much most of the time and still generally avoiding people?For various, often external reasons, since I started drugs and therapy in January of 1998, I have not been "much better" (my definition is somewhere around #2) for more than even 6 months, much less 100% of the time and I cannot recall the last time in the last 10 years when I was completely free -- it might have been as long ago as 1985-86.
< < It's ok -- BTDT. > >
Sorry, what does BTDT mean?Allison
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