Posted by AdaGrace on February 10, 2005, at 15:52:59
In reply to Re: Susan, posted by sunny10 on February 9, 2005, at 12:23:17
The thing is, I really do not harbor any ill feelings towards my childhood and the verbal garbage that was thrown my way. I know that that is the reason for my low self esteem, my compulsive behavior, my eating disorder, my alcoholism....everything I can contribute to those words of "d*mn dummy" and "what are you, stupid?" And yes, there were occassional ear pulling incidents, or thumping on the head with the fore finger and thumb, and a belt across my bum a few times, but this to me was a "normal" childhood, filled with laughter with siblings. I just don't think I was happy. I think that this is the reason for my search for true happyness now. I found some, I truely did, and I finally found out what love, caring, tenderness, and happyness was all about. Now that I know what that is, I can't settle for less, even if it isn't with him......
I don't know what else to say,
Thank you for caring.....
poster:AdaGrace
thread:454257
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