Posted by Partlycloudy on July 1, 2014, at 20:24:14
In reply to Re: (Big breath) OK...trauma stuff. Not triggering., posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 19:52:12
> > Then one by one, they'd leave, until I was alone. Every meal.
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> Because they had done eating?
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> When people are detoxing... Often... Food is... Hard to stomach. Depends a bit what people are detoxing from... But when one is sick... One is more... Focused in one oneself than focused in on... Making friends.
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> When I'm sick... I have heightened sensitivity... These people... Might well have simply needed silence and to be alone.
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> Not to say that there is anything wrong with you or anything... Just that you needed something different, yeah. I am saying this because... It probably wasn't personal. It wasn't that they didn't like you. Just that they needed something different, was all.No, Alexandra. They would take their plates of food, and move elsewhere to eat. The male patients who had detoxed from heroin were all underweight and ate massive quantities of high caloric food, often going back for seconds and thirds.
As to silence and being alone, the atmosphere in the place was wide screen TVs in many places, all at full volume, and no place to be alone or in silence unless you retreated to your tiny, claustrophobic room. That's what my peers did. They watched TV, violent movies, shows about drug busts, and stayed as far away from me as they could. Being twice their average age didn't help, nor did their glorifying tales of how many times they had flatlined, and what they would do "when they got out."
I feel that my experiences are being invalidated because my perceptions are being questioned.
Not only do I know what I experienced, the experiences were seen and acknowledged by the facility staff, who ate in the same room.I am confused as to your line of questioning. Have you been in a recovery facility for addiction? Do you think I experienced paranoia?
This is distressing.
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