Posted by Wittgensteinz on January 9, 2012, at 14:27:17
In reply to Bad title, posted by Dinah on January 9, 2012, at 11:03:58
Yes, this is a change - is he still your 'therapist mommy' as you used to affectionately refer to him?
Maybe he does need to lose his cloak (except for on special occasions) - maybe that's a necessary part of the process, even though it evokes perhaps a sense of grief? In the same way he loses his grip over you - or you loosen your grip over him (not to imply that he is controlling you or vice versa but rather that he is important to you). In a perfect world would the perfect-parent ever let their child go? Surely they'd be there forever and ever and ever. In the real world, this just isn't how it works. Perhaps at some point, we all have to let go of this fantasy.
It's funny, in some ways I am horrified by my T's displays of being a mere mortal - like the time he had crutches. I cried and cried and couldn't understand why I felt so overwhelmed with anxiety - only after the crutches were gone could I rationalize what it was all about. On other occasions however I find his imperfections quite endearing (like the last session when he cursed loudly after having accidentally broken one of the light fittings). I want him to be imperfect, human like me then I don't feel so self-conscious about all the things I share/confess - yet I want him to be perfect and immortal so that he is reliable and never leaves me or lets me down.
Witti
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