Posted by obsidian on February 7, 2011, at 22:26:27
In reply to bereft, posted by obsidian on February 7, 2011, at 22:10:20
I am facing the eventual death of someone who has been a major figure in my story.
and I have found that I am not so prideful these days
in the face of these things how can I be?
so, I am taking things as they are and as he is, the good with the bad and everything in between,
with a deep pain for everything that wasn't and an appreciation of the limited time left (though there is room for some optimism there). I after all, exist in part because of him...and we share some things...somehow, despite it all.Sometimes, I can't feel a thing, a merciful numbness, that spacey vacantness, but only a natural kind.
and I am asking myself, can I stay sober? do I want to? it'd be so easy not to be. Part of me thinks I'd be better off without the burden of dulled senses and functioning with an added weight...which it probably is.
I can't say this otherwise, but there it is, for whatever it's worth.
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