Posted by Annabelle Smith on December 10, 2010, at 23:53:00
In reply to no thoughts?, posted by Annabelle Smith on December 10, 2010, at 23:44:45
Also, I can give an update. I made it through last night without buying the icing. But today was like every other day, constantly thinking about everything I eat; feeling good when I restrict and then having my frustrating moments when I let it go and take something that is bad.
As for waiting for my session, it has been an emotional roller-coaster. I have been able to concentrate and get a little work done today. But my obessional, desperate thoughts come and go, like a constant process of being in flux. I need to make it until Wed at 4pm, although I know this attitude of dependency is not healthy and is just making me hurt so much worse.
Also, I got a book today in the mail that my therapist had suggested to me. It is called "Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook." That is the kind of therapy that my therapist is trained in and likes to use, in conjunction with mindfulness/radical acceptance practices, in our sessions. The book offers helpful ideas to self-soothe, cope, and live with intense emotions. Reading through it makes me feel more indepedent-- scary, good, depressing, hopeful and all of the above. But it is a coping mechanism that I will hopefully be able to put into practice, at least to calm some of this stuff down so I can make it through what I have to do and work well with him to get to the real issues in therapy sessions.
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