Posted by fallsfall on June 8, 2010, at 22:24:37
In reply to Re: Why I wanted to read this board today » fallsfall, posted by Annierose on June 8, 2010, at 10:18:02
I feel stronger than I was. I feel like I can handle things.
I used to need him to recognize when things were starting to go downhill. I didn't know how to recognize it myself. And I didn't know how to stop the fall. I didn't know how to deal with the issues I faced.
I just don't feel that way anymore. I know when things aren't going well. I pretty much know what he is going to say about what I should do about things. It isn't that I don't need him still - some stuff was going on at work a month or two ago that had me tied up in knots and he was helpful. But the situation went down when he was away and I was fine with waiting for him to get back.
I trust myself now. For a long time I didn't trust my instincts, because my instincts had gotten me in the hole that I was in. Now I feel like I have good judgment.
Since I can stand on my own two feet now, I don't need to see him as often. It isn't that I'm learning to depend on him less - I am more competent now so my need is less.
So no, there was no "ah ha" moment. Just lots of strengthening over lots and lots of time.
You sound stronger than before. More self-reliant. Do you feel stronger?
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