Posted by antigua3 on March 31, 2010, at 16:38:10
In reply to Re: Why do I need my therapist? » Dinah, posted by Raindancer on March 27, 2010, at 19:38:25
I'd like to add hope to this discussion. I recently left my T, although I can see her when I need to, but I've found that I don't need her so much anymore, that I can handle more things on my own. When something really bad happens--memories, flashbacks, life events--I've found myself just handling it myself. Before I would have called her, but now I know in my head and heart what she would say to me and I do it.
But, I hadn't seen her for a few months--she was giving me an opportunity to fly on my own--and she was still wonderful, but I didn't feel that need for her anymore, although she still provides great insight and I still learn from her.
I don't feel this way at all about my psychiatrist. That's deep transference right now, and it's so difficult, especially when I see him every other week. I go through the same thing that Raindancer described, every time. I'm not finished with him yet, but it's a wonderful feeling of knowing that I was ready to leave my T. I'm lucky, I know, I can still reach out to her when I need her, but I don't feel a loss right now.
I don't think I've just transferred everything onto my psychiatrist. My T and psychiatrist are two very different people and serve two different needs in my life. But, I know how much it hurts.
So, I just wanted to say that I'm sorry you're hurting so badly, and I hope it eases up for you, and for everyone. For me, it was a LONG time coming, so I'm not one to talk, really. I don't know, it just feels good to be in a different place with her.
Take care everyone. You are the best,
antigua
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