Posted by floatingbridge on March 8, 2010, at 13:27:16
In reply to Re: what's right with you » floatingbridge, posted by Verloren on March 8, 2010, at 13:09:44
Verloren,
The thirst metaphor rings so true for me. Years ago I dreamt that I was absolutely parched--the entire kitchen scene was in a bleached yellow--the thirst was unbearable, and the sink was filled with soapy water. I tried to talk with my mother, how thirsty I was. Instead, she played the violin, smiling unpleasantly, or at least obliviuosly (and no, she never played violin).
Personally, I believe, and have slowly (and I mean f-n' slowly), come to realize what that thirst is for. Like 'attention', that metaphorical thirst is built in. Recovering instincts. Of course, that is my own belief in the basic needs of human beings....
What you want your therapist to understand and help teach you--I hope she or if need be, someone else (and soon) will be your advocate. You absolutely deserve it.
Tough questions to ask one's self--.
Thank you for the clarification about behaviors. I'm wondering, though, that if one knows the behavior, placing it in the realm of being changeable, is that the same? Aren't the 'personality disorders' largely unconscious, subconscious (I don't know the proper word)? Maybe you 'were' and now you're 'not'?
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> >>I wonder what could be wrong about the desire for attention (aka 'attention seeking'). Seems like a hard-wired drive. Every one I know wants attention--some have better ways of getting it.
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> Hi floatingbridge
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> I don't think there's necessarily anything wrong about "wanting attention". But lying to get it is a different story. Embellishing and elaborate story-telling are different stories. Then it becomes a problem and while that person may get attention, most people will soon tire of the embellishments after a while.
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> So far they haven't shared any straight diagnosis. They've said depression and some borderline tendencies. But no, I don't know what all my diagnoses are, if there are more than that. But then again, I suspect THEY don't know what all my diagnoses are.
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> I have wondered at times, why there are so many disorders for so many different behaviors. It seems to me that no one can possibly be "normal" with so many abnormal behaviors. Or maybe we are all normal and the truly abnormal ones are those who seem to have no issues.
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> I also need so much. And it's strange because I don't even know everything that I need. I have an analogy: If you've never been given water, how do you know what to do for thirst?
> That's how I feel at times. I don't completely know what I missed out on as a child and how big of an impact it may be for my current life. I just know I'm thirsty; I don't know that I should drink something. So can I really reparent myself if I don't know what parenting should represent? Sure there are movies, tv, and stories from others. But is it enough?
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> I'd like my therapist to understand that. And to teach me what water is.
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> -v
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