Posted by Willful on February 22, 2010, at 10:25:47
In reply to I'm not sure what I'm doing, posted by antigua3 on February 21, 2010, at 15:37:29
Hi, antigua.
I don't think seeing a T because you're having more or even recurrent issues is a step backward. If it is, you'll know much moreafter you see her, too.
From what I gathered in the past, you've always been ambivalent about your psychiatrist-- and have felt that he's distant or unresponsive. (I hope I'm remembering correctly.) It's very brave and difficult to work with someone who has a cooler style than what we're comfortable with-- and I know you made that choice very consciously. He seems to have something you need-- even though he doesn't give you other things. But could you talk to him over the phone? At least to tell him that you need to come in sooner?
I can understand why the triad was too much to manage. It seems like a lot. But maybe your psychiatrist isn't available enough to give you what you're looking for in terms of resolution of issues with your father?
It may seem radical, but how about finding another T? Maybe a man, if you think that would help more on father issues? It wouldn't be, although it might feel, disloyal to your old T. Your old T was a wonderful person-- but maybe what she had to offer didn't reach these other issues for some reason. Sometimes this happens.
I'm just thinking aloud. I might be completely off base. If so, I apologize. You do sound like you're in a difficult situation-- and I'd like to give you support to see your old T if you feel that would help. To go forward, sometimes you have to call on the resources you found in the past, don't you think?
You can still be proud of yourself, even if you're relying on people-- it can be a sign of real independence to do that, too.
Willful
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