Posted by Phillipa on May 1, 2009, at 12:37:09
Strange as you know can't find a therapist made the total eight hour drive to pdoc who is still in hospital after car accident and saw the Nurse Practioneer. It was so nice to talk with someone who was on the same thinking as me. I realized how much I need to just talk. I told her about all my ridiculous fears like the telephone, going upstairs, being alone, list goes on and on. I said I know they are ridiculous and make no sense but the PHD's I saw kept asking me why I had those fears. I said to NP wasn't it her job to help me figure out why she said yes. She validated what I've thought. Now driving home with husband I had a wake up moment as my Mother blamed me for her illness said I was the one who made her sick with psoriasis as a baby and my fault she got sicker till died when I was l7. Then it hit me that when my thyroid went and my problems started I'd been married to current husband one week and have figured he made me sick with all the stress he caused me. So doesn't that make me just like my Mother blaming someone else? Just have no one else to ask. Thanks Phillipa
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