Posted by brooksie1 on February 13, 2009, at 16:20:10
Hi all, I'm new here, so please bear with me.
I was terminated by my therapist on Monday for reasons of my own making. My T. gave me referrals to three new T.s, one of which I have an appt. for next week.
I am consumed with the guilt that this pain I caused my T. ,and myself was my own fault. The guilt, grief and remorse continues to overwhelm me to the point I can't function. I have lost the person who in the past year has helped me transform my life. I can never forgive myself.
I have never felt so alone in my life, so without support. My wife is angry at me as well, for my T. essentially revived a dead marriage. She knew what she had done for me, and she's doubly disappointed in me.
I try to continue my daily activities, but there's no joy or meaning in what I do. Where do I find meaning again in life? How can I get past the pain that I have caused? How do I forgive myself??? My life is overwhelmed by my sorrow, I've never felt so undeserving of happiness. :(
brooksie
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thread:879943
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