Posted by rskontos on February 12, 2009, at 22:11:56
In reply to Re: Apparently I am hard to get.. (triggery + long) » rskontos, posted by fleeting flutterby on February 12, 2009, at 17:00:16
> > I am too sensitive I do know that and this one co-worker doesn't like me. Went to the supervisor. Etc etc. Says she doesn't not like me but our personalities sometime clash.<<
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> ---I'm sensitive like this too. I had a VERY similar situation at a former job. The co-worker tried to get me fired. She didn't like me and didn't like how I well I got along with another co-worker we had in common.***sounds just like mine. I do get along with everyone else quite well so i just don't get the one. I think this one would like to get me fired as well.
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> >> My t who is my p-doc said to go ahead and take .25 of xanax before work and see if that keeps my fragmented selves under control and less sensitive.<<
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> ---- I think that could be a good idea-- it's worth a try- no?
>****Tomorrow will be my first try. I'll you know.
> > I tried to turn in my notice today but my boss said to take the long weekend (we have monday off) to think it over. She says she doesn't want to lose me. (should make me feel better but of course I can't internalize good stuff just bad stuff)<<
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> ----Sounds like you have a nice boss. When I had that co-worker that hated me, I applied for a job in another department-- and got to transfer 3 weeks later.(sheesh-- the longest 3 weeks ever!) Yes, I understand only feeling the "bad" stuff instead of the good.
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> > I feel like I don't belong in public.<<
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> ---- Oh that is how I am. I finally gave up and now work in solitude, with tropical plants.(they never hate me!)I guess plants would be fairly easy to work with...LOL
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> >> But no, in all seriousness before therapy I would have been more able to be more flat and not care at all about what someone thinks about me. But now, it hurts my feelings which seem to be on top of my head versus my shoulders.
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> ------ Really? wow I've never been in a place-mentally- where I just don't care what someone thinks.... that sounds quite peaceful. Maybe you can work at getting just a bit of that back somehow......?.....(the psychologist I used to see tried and tried to get me to this point-- where I didn't care so much what others think)Yes the hazy of dissociation gone wild. And its aftermath. I am not sure I was peaceful, just out of it.
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> > I feel like a mess. And a mess that should be restricted to house arrest.<<
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> ----- No not house arrest. just kindness and compassion is what you need. I'm sorry you're having a rough time now. :o(
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thanks so much. it really helps to have support and not to feel so alone. alone and unliked.>
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> > sorry to be downer right now. But I have been trying to get it together alone but I guess that isn't working. I am such a mess I did not even think I could come here and tell you guys what I was going through. I did not think I deserved to do that. See what I mean about only internalizing bad stuff.<<
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> --- Its good you came here-- many of us understand your mental place at this time. I've internalized bad stuff ALL my life-- I know it sucks and it's upsetting and ridden with anxiety. I so feel for you and relate too.again thanks i am glad I came here too!
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> > Can't figure why I dissociative so much at work. At least half the time there I feel floaty, or gone, or I fade in and out at least 5-6 times. So much that I usually have a headache when I leave.<<
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> ----Could be in "overload" with feelings. been there myself- a lot.
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Yes definitely. Overload is so right on.again thanks so much for your thoughtful response.
rsk
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