Posted by rskontos on January 25, 2009, at 17:46:20
In reply to Re: Will I ever stop wanting/needing a 'Mommie?', posted by sharon7 on January 25, 2009, at 14:37:50
> wow. thank you so much, rsk. that was very thoughtful and encouraging. it really does help knowing im not crazy (just broken, wanting/trying to get put back together,) and that many others are in the same boat. next time i see my t, i will try and broach this subject. after having my meltdown in her office last Thurs, i impulsively called and canx'd my next 2 appts with her, so its going to be like 3 more wks till i see her again. i think i do that after one of those episodes because i think if i stay away a couple weeks she'll have forgotten the way i acted. thanks again and best of success on your journey as well. (o:
Well, again, don't feel like the lone ranger, I have done the same thing. Behave in a way that I feel ashamed. But in all honesty I believe that our t's have seen all this before and will see it all again. They know that our behavior has been shaped by the sad way we were treated as children and until we can learn new patterns of behavior it will just take time and patience not only on their parts but ours as well. We have to be patient with ourselves. The parts of ourselves that have remained children and need to grow up to match our outside exteriors. We have parts of us, that inside is still stuck in the era of our childhood that was lost to us because our parents abandoned us to a defunct childhood where we needed to parent ourselves and we did not have the tools to do so. And parts of ourselves are on the inside grown up but the two don't always play nice together and there lies the conflict within. So don't be ashamed that sometimes this conflict manifests itself to the outside world because your t knows this and accepts it and wants to help.
Just the acceptance of it yourself will allow you to be able to share how you feel to your t. Then this will go long way to help you begin to deal with it.
It will get better, then get hard, then get better, and so on. We are all here to help you best that we can.
take care,
((((((((sharon)))))))))
rsk
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