Posted by llurpsienoodle on December 12, 2008, at 18:47:20
In reply to Re: tough week » llurpsienoodle, posted by rskontos on December 11, 2008, at 19:03:07
I had therapy this morning. I was all over the place. Talking miles a minute, and jumping from one topic to another, midsentence.
Well, if free-associating is healing, I did a LOT of it today.
T had a scratch on his finger from playing with his cat this am. It kept on bleeding. At one point I looked at him and said- you're bleeding- and then went right on with my story.
He was nice and supportive about my bad week. we explored why it is that I always seem to put myself in psychologically dangerous territory. I still have no answers for that.
Still his finger is bleeding. He said he was on plavix, and sometimes his blood doesn't clot right away. oh. so, don't attack the cat! but he can't help it! He has a lot of scratches, typically. Especially when the cat was a kitten. But this was the first bleeder.
I keep talking. he tries to stop the blood with a kleenex. then he finds a band-aid in his desk drawer. I remark that he's performing triage- bleeders first, psychos second. haha
we got around to scheduling. He reminded me that I'll see him 2x next week. Then he said something interesting - "Don't worry, you'll be cared for next week". I thought that was nice. He's never really referred to caring for me, or therapy as a caring relationship. Or even therapy as healthcare. Care has so many meanings... But I thought that was illuminating. (((((T)))))
I think maybe? I'm starting to feel a little slower. Maybe my mind is starting to return to normal speed limits.
Well, I hope your Fridays are nice. Thanks for reading. :)
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