Posted by rskontos on November 30, 2008, at 21:29:48
In reply to Re: I am hating what therapy is bring out in me » SlugSlimersSoSlided, posted by seldomseen on November 30, 2008, at 14:47:28
As Seldom Said "In my opinion, sad as it may be, there is no one that can truly take away the loneliness of our journey. Only those that can promise to be with us as we go."
This is what I meant when I said to my therapist that therapy sure is a lonely business. It is because the path to recovery is a lonely one. It is sad that so much was taken, and it is up to us to recover it. But we must. And to some extent that recovery is all up to us, with our t's help but still up to us.
I understand all too well how you feel. I have ranted and raved the exact same thing that you are saying to myself and to my t. And now I say to myself that what was was and what is is now up to me. It is hard. Sometimes it is so much easier to stay down, and say why. It is hard to pick up one more time, dust off the crap, and take care of business. But in the end, I think the rewards will be all the sweeter because we (you) all of us will have done it our way, by ourselves and on our terms. We will have released the things that hold us back, embraced new things and people (hopefully) and learned to live by our rules. Often these are new rules. For me, I am just learning what rules I want and need. But that is ok.
I am learning by myself and with my t to stand on my feet. I am shaky, much like that new toddler learning to stand and walk on shaky young legs. I am reaching and grabbing for things I want for a change. I don't often know if I want it until I grab it and sometimes I change my mind after I grab but that too is ok.
I agree that so many have walked this walk before us, and they are down at the finish line so to speak. We will get there.
It is tough but SSSS you will make it.
And while that little one that was hurt is part of you, she can be the one to push you forward to a better tomorrow.rsk
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