Posted by seldomseen on November 30, 2008, at 17:09:55
In reply to Re: I am hating what therapy is bring out in me » seldomseen, posted by SlugSlimersSoSlided on November 30, 2008, at 16:16:38
Yeah, unfortunately I get it.
Let me assure you that this pain will not overwhelm you and it's definately NOT insurmountable. It's a steep climb, but absolutely doable. It hurts like a m*th*rf*ck*r, but does pass. (I really hope that I have the auto asterisking on. I have no idea how to check).
It IS a lot like your guinea pigs. This tender part of you must be handled with a very very soft touch. It sounds as though your therapist is up for it. Very likely she knows the gift you have given her and isn't afraid to walk with you. Because chosing our walking partners is a tremendous gift.
My T was like that with me. Still is, if I'm honest with myself, he'll go anywhere.
Will you ever recover? I use that word a lot - recovery - as if I'm regaining something that was lost. I don't know if that's right. I wonder if we can get back something we never had to begin with.
I also don't know if abuse is something from which we ever "move on", but we can certainly "move with it".
We can even come to the point (where I am now) where we wonder if the abuse is the prevailing influence in our behaviour/lives/choices.
But, I get ahead of myself.
Take good care.
Seldom.
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