Posted by rskontos on November 5, 2008, at 15:32:14
In reply to Re: How does a person stay upbeat or motivated? » rskontos, posted by raisinb on November 5, 2008, at 14:05:54
Thanks raisinb,
I am trying. I have been fighting this for alittle while now and he knows. I ranted last session. I have had a hard time with flashbacks, my father, and this has caused a rift in my hold of my emotional feelings that I just plain don't have control over. Because of the past and my dissociative abilities I would say I have the emotional control of all or nothing. So when things get overwhelming I just lose it. And I have lost it. So we upped my wellbutrin. And maybe it is just causing me to have ups and downs. I guess I can email pdoc/t and tell him. I haven't great history with ADs.
And underneath it all is this stress of childhood abuse resurfacing that I need to understand. We have been talking about it in sessions and it is just floating underneath the surface ready to come out and I don't have a handle on it either. So you are right I am depressed and down because I don't feel very confident in myself no matter how others see me.
Wouldn't it be nice if we could get a dose of how others see us and us that to help us reshape our views of ourselves. I get information from others that is positive but it rarely impacts how I see myself. Strange behavior that is.
Thanks for the good thoughts.
Funny I have a hard time reaching out to my t/pdoc even though he would handle it nicely I am sure. I always just wait it out until the next session no matter how bad I get.
rsk
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