Posted by DAisym on November 3, 2008, at 22:53:12
In reply to Eureka! (sorry, long), posted by antigua3 on November 2, 2008, at 9:15:27
****My T is the best.****
I knew that already! :)
****Anyway, after me trying to remember exactly why he criticized what i wrote (I haven't been able to go back and even look it; it makes me cringe w/embarrassment just to think about it), she pointed out that it wasn't my writing he criticized, it was what I wrote that he criticized.
Does anyone see the distinction, because it's so clear to me. So I bravely went back to see what had ignited his response, and it was all there on paper. I had written something that he had taken personally, as an afront to his professional abilities as a doctor, that he wouldn't be there when I needed him. ****
This totally makes sense and I'd venture that this idea was flown before but you weren't ready to hear it. Sometimes these kinds of "aha" moments are actually ones that have come over and over again but you needed to be in a place to let it in. I'm glad you got there, I'm just sorry it was so much work and so hard on you.
Writing is such a personal thing - and I think so much a part of who you are. When it got wrapped up in all this fear and need for approval, it went away - like the wounded child part.
I'm glad you've been able to write again. I hope it stays with you and it adds clarity to all this work you are doing. And I hope you wrote something special for your therapist!! :)
Hugs,
Daisy
poster:DAisym
thread:860348
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20081018/msgs/860670.html