Posted by happyflower on November 3, 2008, at 22:12:29
In reply to PTSD and CSA stuff (hope that triggers obvious), posted by Partlycloudy on November 3, 2008, at 15:26:18
Hi Party Cloudy,
PTSD is so hard to deal with, the symptoms are never welcomed by anyone, they are so debilitating.
YOu know I know this, and it is hard for others to understand it unless they have experienced it, it isn't just one thing, it is several, all senses are on overload. I am glad you are seeing your PDoc to help you, never feel guilty for needing him, that is what they are there for.
Do you think you could cut back on that book and workbook for now? Or maybe do it with your T so he can help you with what is happening? It seems like you have had enough to deal with just excepting what happened to your past.
It makes some sense for you to work out while feeling your pain, but maybe try things that aren't hard on your back in the first place. Ironing is also hard on your back, unless you do it without bending over. How about washing windows or just walking?
Are your nightmares actual memories you think? Because they could be flashbacks. It is so hard to operate when you can't get a good night's sleep, it seems like alone is enough to through anyone off balance.
Maybe the book is too much to deal with, you need to be able to survive just living right now. Maybe going slower at this. I am so sorry you have to go through this, I wish I could help somehow. I hope the sleep meds help you get to sleep and stay asleep. I am curious what your Pdoc thinks and your T after you see them.