Posted by Dinah on October 18, 2008, at 10:34:50
In reply to Re: I'm not sure what to do » Dinah, posted by Nadezda on October 18, 2008, at 10:14:49
> I sense that you may not be ready. In that case, it's not right to force yourself. It's not a failure not to do this-- it really is okay. Give yourself the right to make your own decision, though. It is your right.
You're right, of course.
The traumatic (to me it *was* traumatic) experience I just had might have been enough to make me want to commit, for the first time in my life, to work on this.
But that's *all* I'm ready for right now. And for me it's a pretty big step on its own. I'm just too upset by what just happened to be ready for more than that right now. In the future, yes. But not right now. I need to rest.
Right now, I'm feeling a bit pressured by my therapist's enthusiasm. I don't want to let him down. I guess that's a good thing in general in therapy, but maybe not so much at the moment.
Thank you for seeing that, and making me see it in myself.