Posted by FindingMyDesire on October 15, 2008, at 16:51:58
In reply to For Jay, Turtle, FMD + others -- LOOOONG!, posted by lucie lu on October 15, 2008, at 13:35:47
Wow, Lucie Lu,
Thank you so much for sharing your experience here! It is very helpful - at least in the intellectual moment right now. I read this before lunch and then noticed that I felt much less shame while I was thinking about HER for that hour. I also think the JayMac "How often do you...?" thread has helped - but I need more of that conversation! Way more than I could even have here.Your line "I flopped around like a fish on a line" perfectly describes where I am right now. My head is so full of this stuff right now I don't know how I function at all really. And my body - either I am hurting; my palms, my chest, my throat out of some kind of pain, or I have a burning shame sensation in my belly, or I'm simply overwhelmed with sexual desire. It feels weird to have normal conversations with people in the hallway at work. Can't they tell I'm only half listening? What if I say her name out loud by accident?
Anyway, thanks Lucie. Your sharing helps.
FMD
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