Posted by seldomseen on October 8, 2008, at 11:40:33
In reply to He can't die though, posted by Dinah on October 7, 2008, at 20:39:12
DInah,
As I'm sure you know, there are no guarantees when it comes to this life.
We go based on faith that everything will be the same from one day to the next. Our security depends on it and yet we wait and plan for the rug to pulled out from under us sending us tumbling.
I understand this fear very much. My T and I have plan in case he dies as well.
As I'm sure you know, underlying this fear is the tremendous value and love you have given this man. No matter how hard we work, it so hard to make that permanent and lasting. You, perhaps moreso than many have had many threats to your relationship with your T. Real threats of relocation, evacuation and abandonment due to family issues.
You want to keep him and retain that value, retain that security in your life. I know, Dinah, I know.
I don't know what is going on with him physically. Swelling of the legs can either be benign or quite serious. It's impossible to say without further information.
In any case, he has been there for you in the past and I'm sure he will continue to do so. My T has told me that I can come see him in the nursing home if I need to.
He will not leave you, not any time soon I suspect.
As you sit with this fear, I'm sending you love and security. You're lucky I have some security to spare, as that is getting damn hard to come by these days.
Seldom.
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