Posted by Looney Tunes on August 16, 2008, at 22:04:39
In reply to Re: Feeling shame and anger, posted by Dinah on August 16, 2008, at 12:38:38
I am not really sure I understood any of what I read, but a couple of thoughts:
1) Cry. Let it out. Sometimes just crying makes you feel better. (Then ice cream works well after)
2) You say you suffer from PTSD. If you have to have any label at least you have one that is not your fault. You did not cause this, someone else did. (I am assuming a person/people and not a natural disaster or war) You should hold you head high, because you survived. And then you should be VERY pissed at whoever is responsible for your PTSD. Anger turned inward = depression..it's all related..
3) Maybe your therapist is encouraging you to fly, but not away. Think of it like a baby bird. The mom pushes the baby out and the baby falls many times before it can really fly alone. But the mom is always there the first hundred times the baby bird falls. So, T wants you to do something, find something in your life besides "your books and work." He wants to be there as you try and fly and find something to make your life better.
I TOTOALLY understand. I work, I read, I hang out with my pets.....and then well....So, my old T was like "join something". Sh*t was that hard. I felt like T had not understood me at all...I hated doing things and being around people for "fun." Why was the one person who I thought understood me telling me to join something.
But I tried something. I took a first flight. I went and it turned out to be fun and I met some people like me. And best of all, T was there the whole time to encourage me and laugh at my disasterous first projects from the class (I took woodshop for women!)I dont know if any of this was the right thing in response to your post. If not, all I can then say is hang in there...
-LT
poster:Looney Tunes
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