Posted by Dinah on August 16, 2008, at 12:34:11
In reply to Re: pdoc update**poss sa trigger**REALLY LONG » Dinah, posted by antigua3 on August 16, 2008, at 12:17:45
My therapist has changed a lot of my core beliefs over time. And I was strong enough, and I did find it made me stronger.
He didn't batter them away. He was patient and consistent and wore away at them like the river at rock. He forever changed by personal landscape, but by gentle erosion, not by earthquake or volcano.
He would introduce a topic, but at signs of resistance, he'd yield, leaving me nothing left to push against, and causing me to stumble forward if I pushed myself. Then the same topic would be addressed later, maybe from a different angle.
For me this was right. I'd have done horribly with a very forceful therapist. I still would. But that's me. I know many people have gotten enormous value from it.
So I do understand your fear. It can be terrifying for a therapist to turn your world upside down, even in a good way. Is it ok with him if you ask to pause for a moment to gain your balance? Maybe that's what you're trying to do the next week.
When I got vertigo from the damage caused to my inner ear by a virus, my ENT told me that in time my brain would adjust to the new inputs and recalibrate. Maybe therapy isn't all that different.
Hmmm... Maybe a bad choice of analogy. He also gave me a bunch of exercises to make myself dizzy so my brain could recalibrate faster. :)
I do indeed see my therapist as a Ken doll. Not only a eunuch, but without parts at all. I even dreamed when he told me that he was getting married that his wife told me he was a eunuch. I guess my way of keeping my Ken doll image of him in the face of his marriage and honeymoon.
I'm not sure my reasons are that I find men scary though. If he were a woman I'd probably feel the same way.
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